I count it a blessing to be able to read,
write and understand the language of music. I've had many teachers along
the way, most notably from Duke Ellington School in DC and the jazz
program at UNLV.
And I grow more grateful to them with each passing
year!
This knowledge is how I'm making the transition away from relying
on my lame guitar skills into communicating my ideas to a band.
Such a
small effort but very important.
It's so cool to see my music on real
music paper haha! The tune on the screen is a praise song I wrote to
keep me grounded before writing out some blues!
I'm starting to learn the terror of
vulnerability, and it's really humbling.
The past few days have shown me
how challenging it is to show your original music to people, even good
friends.
You'll know from watching me on stage that when I'm
singing other people's music, the fear just isn't there for me!
But in
performing my own music the stakes are SO much higher. As it is right
now, I'll clam up midway through a song and never finish when I'm
showing someone. It's really sad!
Yes, being in the spotlight can
be fun, but it's also totally terrifying.
Time to let go of the fear
and jump this big hurdle so my music can finally be heard.
And I grow more grateful to them with each passing
year! 
